—About three weeks ago (on a Sunday, or I would have called the doc) I was sure the stuff had just stopped working. The comparative peace of mind I’d been enjoying just sort of… vanished in a reign of terror. I sweated, I fevered, I anxietized… but I had the presence of mind to google What’s a girl to do when her Suboxone leaves her in the lurch? Better to take more Suboxone—up to four films—than swallow extra Xanax? That’s what I thought I read.
One film is 8 milligrams of buprenorphine and 2 milligrams of naloxone. My usual dose—which had served me well till then—was one-and-a-half films a day. I’ve tried to eliminate Xanax altogether, but I haven’t gotten there—close, but not yet zero. I’ve taken Adderall for ADHD going on twenty-five years now. Never have I been more committed to healthful living, for my own sake and for yours, dear friends. But glitchus interruptus….
On that Sunday, mid–panic attack, Hysteria Mary was pretty sure I was going to die anyway, but Sane Mary wouldn’t allow me to take more of either drug than seemed safe, allowing for some distortion in my judgment. Over the next several days, the panic subsided, but the nagging fear remained that I’d run out of Suboxone before my next doc appointment. I slipped into the doctor’s office on Thursday, fairly sure she’d supplement the predicted shortage. I was wrong. So for the next few weeks I’m restricted to three-fourths of a film per day—half the usual dose. So far, I’m doing okay. Which just goes to show….
One new thing…
My one-thing-a-day pledge stands firm. Today’s revelation: A glass of cold water upon awakening. I’d read this advice in a few places—the Universe getting my attention. Here’s what one source has to say:
One of the best things you can do after you wake up: drink at least 16oz (500mL) of water. Water fires up your metabolism, hydrates you, helps your body flush out toxins, gives your brain fuel, and may even make you eat less.
From the blog “A Life of Productivity“….
God bless you daily, hourly, minutely, nanosecondly….